Monday, April 6, 2015

For 5 year old Ana

Dear Little Ana,

I know more than anybody else what you went through. You felt frightened and guilty each time you heard your parents quarrel. You felt confused each time you were punished for something you didn't understand you did wrong. Your trust was violated. You suffered physical and emotional abuse. You didn't deserve to have all those things happen to you. There was nothing you could have done to make your home peaceful and safe. The empty house was not your fault. It was not your failure. You can let go of your guilt now. You are innocent and pure.

I want to rescue you from all that pain. I want to protect you from any further pain. I will protect you from hurtful and manipulative people. I will fight to keep you safe. I will defend you. You are such a sweet little girl. You are so cute! You are so so adorable. You are creative and talented. I love you just the way you are. Allah smiled upon you when you were born. You were designed for greatness. You are worthy of love. You are so loved by so many people.

I am here for you now. I will never leave you. I will always be your champion. You are so welcomed in my life. And I will love you no matter what. There is nothing you can do that can ever stop me from loving and caring for you. The way you are is okay with me. Just be yourself and be proud of who you are. You are not alone anymore. I will make sure of that. That's my promise to you and I will never break this promise to you. I carry you in my heart and you will remain close to me everywhere I go.

I love you eternally.

Adult Ana